Dictating and living

At this point I don't have a title for this post and am hoping I won't forget to title when I am through.  More then likely though I will.  I also don't have a subject nor a lot of time to type.  So why am?  I guess I just wanted to say something.  I actually have a lot to say about a lot of different subjects but as usual - to many thoughts on to many things causes me to freeze and not say anything at all.  Which does not mean that I don't talk.  OK, grabbing something out of the air - meeting today at 4:30.  This is an AA meeting by the way.  I know one of our traditions says we are to be anonymous about this stuff in press, radio and films but everyone seems to have a different idea on what this means.  To me it means that I can not go broadcast the meetings nor say who was there or what was said exactly. 

Anyway, the reading today it was saying something about partnership.  Of course I can't remember everything about it but I did latch onto one word - dictates.  I went and found my book that contains this reading.  The sentence is: Follow the dictates of a Higher Power and you will presently live in a new and wonderful world, no matter what your present circumstances!  Of course, I hear "dictates" and being me, which is human, thinks two things at once, the old me which says "your NOT going to tell me how to do something" and the new me "this is the only way I can live". 

I used to live by my own code, if you could call it that.  Do things my way.  I have realized that is not true.  Most people live that way and think it is "their way or the highway" when in reality it is the world's way.  Human nature to resist to what ever makes them feel uncomfortable at the moment.  Be it real or imagined.

I know this is an sudden end to the post but like I said...I didn't know how much time I had and it obviously has come to an end.