Out and About

Greetings to all, which would really mean - HI ROBYNN & possibly T!  I titled this as such because you will never guess where I am.  I really am out & about.  This is being typed up at the World Cup on 21st & Fairlawn.  If you have never visited - you should.  Order the Cafe' Mocha w/whip!  Sipping on one now along w/nibbling on a honey wheat beagel.  (Is that right, you know the bread thing - not the dog in case I typed the word wrong.)

I am here as I just dropped of my 2nd oldest son.  (TT as my wonderful friend would say...{and can you have TT inside a TT} 1 - TT is turtle trail...she is a turtle.  No, not an ACTUAL turtle per se' but one non the less.  A human turtle?  2 - I need to come up with something like that when I trail off on another course, as  I am now.  3 - the whole reason I put the TT in the first place - do I put Phillip as my oldest boy when in actuallity Taylor is but did live with us?  Enough babbling...

So I dropped off Phillip for a noon appt regarding Job Corps.  It's in Manhattan, KS and is a federally funded program.  I am mixed about that.  Sorry we have to use it, glad it is there.  I have one hour to spend before my appt at the same place (Topeka Work Center I think is the name of the place).  Again, mixed about this one as it is also goverment funded but this is the place a lot of employers are going to to seek employees.  Hence, the reason I am there.  I applied for a job that sent me there to do some data entry and typing tests.  Unless I am mistaken, this is basically a place like a temp agency but run by the govt.  Does the employer have to pay as they would in an agency?  I have not a clue but I will guess that if they do, it is a small fee compared to an actual one. 

So a whole lot of nothing just to say - I am sitting at World Cup and typing on my blog and I think this is just about as cool as it can get.  I LOVE IT!  Very chic in my world.  To bad (or actually - good) that we can not smoke in here.  Can I resist it for another ten minutes?  I think I can.

Christmas had just passed.  It was a blessing.  All my children were there.  Though there were some pretty stressfull times, how can there not be when 1)it is my family and 2) because it is my family drama follows? but on the whole it was great!  Drama and all.  My daughter and her youngest spent the night, along with my other two boys.  Christmas day - Taylor came and spent the afternoon and evening with us.  So litterally - all my kids were there!  How much of a blessing is THAT?  I true present from our Lord. 

Well, time to get more out and about and ready for the "test".  I may or may not let you know what happens on here.  As you can see - it is already pretty sparidic.  (I hit the spell check but nothings seems to be happening and I know I didn't type this WITHOUT any errors - so please pardon the mis-spellings.)

Dictating and living

At this point I don't have a title for this post and am hoping I won't forget to title when I am through.  More then likely though I will.  I also don't have a subject nor a lot of time to type.  So why am?  I guess I just wanted to say something.  I actually have a lot to say about a lot of different subjects but as usual - to many thoughts on to many things causes me to freeze and not say anything at all.  Which does not mean that I don't talk.  OK, grabbing something out of the air - meeting today at 4:30.  This is an AA meeting by the way.  I know one of our traditions says we are to be anonymous about this stuff in press, radio and films but everyone seems to have a different idea on what this means.  To me it means that I can not go broadcast the meetings nor say who was there or what was said exactly. 

Anyway, the reading today it was saying something about partnership.  Of course I can't remember everything about it but I did latch onto one word - dictates.  I went and found my book that contains this reading.  The sentence is: Follow the dictates of a Higher Power and you will presently live in a new and wonderful world, no matter what your present circumstances!  Of course, I hear "dictates" and being me, which is human, thinks two things at once, the old me which says "your NOT going to tell me how to do something" and the new me "this is the only way I can live". 

I used to live by my own code, if you could call it that.  Do things my way.  I have realized that is not true.  Most people live that way and think it is "their way or the highway" when in reality it is the world's way.  Human nature to resist to what ever makes them feel uncomfortable at the moment.  Be it real or imagined.

I know this is an sudden end to the post but like I said...I didn't know how much time I had and it obviously has come to an end. 

unanswerable questions, answered prayers

Even if a response to a question is given it doesn't mean it is really answered.  Even the person replying may not know the true explanation.  This is where prayers come in.

I have no idea why someone does some of the things they do and to be honest, I don't know if I really want to know.  What I do know is that God is absolute, ever ready and willing to provide for us when we are to lost to know we are.  For this I am forever grateful.  There was a time when I was lost and didn't know it. 

I have since been found and with God's grace I hope to be able to speak with those that are still lost, even or more so, the ones that do not realize they are.  One of my prayers to an unanswerable question had been answered on Sunday afternoon.  I now ask the good Lord to provide me with courage and endurance (both of which I truly lack) to be able to talk with this lost one, if not to lead then at least to plant a seed. 

May God be with this lost sheep and his family.