Experiencing the Present

Obviously it seems that I was stuck in the past since I haven't posted for over a month.  Like most things I start - I have great intentions, and we all know where THAT leads to.

No, actually I wasn't stuck in the past - I have been and still am experiencing the present to the best of my ability.  Most days it is a wonderful experience but then there are the days that I just would prefer to hit the fast forward and move to the next.  What I have learned in living in the present is that wishing to hit either the fast forward or the rewind buttons keeps me from learning what is happening in my life at that moment.  Now that I understand that concept - I need to work on actually retaining that knowledge so I will quite making the same mistakes.   That is now and always has been one of my major character defects. 

This particular defect of mine has made life very interesting to say the least.  I can honestly say that at times it has it's perks.  I don't know how many times I have literally enjoyed for the first time something in life over and over simply because I forget about the previous experience! This can be good news for people I met over the course of my life because if you were not happy with the first impression you feel you presented to me - just wait a tad and reintroduce yourself to me and I will most likely form a different one. 

It does have it's down falls though...my children know that I can easily forget that they are grounded.  This isn't a good thing for them at all but, of course, they would argue that point.  I've tried to write their names on the calendar to help remind me that they are not to go anywhere. Unfortunately that doesn't work when I forget to look at the calendar or worse, forget to write the name down. 

I have learned though to go by my instincts instead of memory.  I may forget a lot but my instincts retain all kinds of memory.  But it is hard to explain why we should or shouldn't do something because I "feel" that is the way it is to go.  14 years old don't reason like that.  Actually 6 years old and  42 years old don't either.  At least the people in my home don't.